little white lies

(source - www.fawnfruits.com)
isn't his work lovely! ♥

i may lengthen my hair again in the coming months, full head. i've an open order on ten tubes of my blue hair dye. it's a shame that not only is it a salon dye but it's long discontinued also, thus terribly hard to come by. i've failed to find another blue hair dye quite like it. i can create any shade i like from it with a bit of mixing, it's extremely concentrated. i've plenty of pink left, three tubes i believe. these i mix with manic panic cotton candy pink to give better depth and lasting.... penetration (ooh!!!)
i feel like the ugly duckling that blossomed n bloomed into a blueberry. & i reek of it.

in the body shop sale i purchased:
♥ 5 blueberry body butter (at £6 each. i already have three of this)
♥ 2 pomegranate body butter (at £6 each. already have three of this and the rest of the pomegranate range)
♥ 2 almond body scrub (£6 each. why on earth is there no scent available in this? i want to stink of marzipan all over again)
♥ 2 melon home fragrance oil (£1.75 each. this is a bit poo but dan likes it so i'm giving them to him)

behind a cabinet in my room, i discovered the following long lost cd's:
♥ nin - with teeth
♥ the cardigans - long gone before daylight
♥ weezer - pinkerton
♥ ben folds five - whatever & ever amen
♥ graham coxon - the sky is too high (though this only draws attention to the distant memory of the kiss of morning, i cannae find that anywhere, however hard i try, i only find the box. such a tease)
♥ gorillaz - something or other, i have no idea what album this is. nay matter.
♥ the beatles - rubber soul
♥ simon & garfunkel - bridge over troubled water
♥ morrissey - southpaw grammar
♥ the smiths - meat is murder (which i'm listening to at present!)
those pesky kittens, i say!!!

i gots magic hands n nothin to push but the wrong buttons.
i've no money to buy dresses i'm after. i spend all my money on gigs & alcohol because i'm an utter moron. i've a minolta lens i could sell for up to £100 (i always bring up selling this but can't actually seem to part with it). i might get on to that and then buy dresses

here are my considerations:

(source - topshop & miss selfridge)

i must remember to visit sheffield again soon. i don't want to miss the vivienne westwood exhibition!! ..... damn.

P.S HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE BEAUTIFUL BETHANY!!!! ♥ ♥ ♥ xxxx
(i'll attempt to doodle a little something for you later)

it's really flattering to find myself appearing on so many lovely peoples blogs & in receipt of many appreciative messages from other girls since i began uploading my photos & artwork to flickr earlier this year!
(i shant mention my having been inundated mainly by messages from males who've tights and sock fetishes)

i received a message today from this sweet girl informing me that she's dedicated a post to me on her blog here.
isn't that nice!! ♥
i had a gander around the blog & it's certainly worth a look.

i saw ben folds live in sheffield this tuesday, it was marvelous, really wonderful. i'd like to do it all over again.
on the 25th of june i saw miyavi live in london also, during his first world tour. that was really a sight to behold. i momentarily found myself completely & utterly head over heels for a boy who wasn't interested. but for the love of visiting london again and seeing miyavi live for the first time, it was definitely worth it, if just to shake me up a little and drop me back down to earth. i admit, i got hit by the thunderbolt. but it's no use to me now.

i'm gonna pick that macadamia nut right outta my head! ♥

i've noticed that nivea (yee otherwise known as labello or liposan!) lip care "repair & protection" smells exactly like pista kulfi (pistachio ice cream!...!? ♥)
i'll live for it, then leave it for johnsons & vanilla pods. (♥)
timing must be everything! so what a waste of time.
and i'm tired of taking allergy pills every day without knowing my allergen, yet i part my lips & take it, like any good little girl or boy.

oh! by the way! haruki murakami's tony takitani is on film four at some time past 02:00 this eve, i recommend all of those within the U of K to watch it!
"a minor masterpiece" hehehehehe

( godrevy point )

we discovered this wonderful little coffee shop in bradford with a glittery basement!! bellissimo! ( & )

i've begun having such extreme notions & urges to set everything associated with my life within resin... !!
i'd enjoy not only the ability to touch the outer layer but the inability to feel the structure's contour inside its cast. i'd like to look at it and guard it from the elements while it lingers locked, captured & encapsulated, contained forever pristine in its casketed cocoon. molded into such simplistic shapes of birds, stars, solid russian dolls, squares, circles, and hearts. collecting the parts i could never set free... found only to be waiting, wasting away... long unrecognised.... and now breathing in and welcoming the intermingling satisfaction in the rush of their constrictive plastic setting, a new home. encased and emulsified, such worthless pieces of junk like the sirens and sleeping beauties, i'll cut off their air supply just to see if it matters...
then i'll wear me around my neck, distancing myself from me. keeping me close at hand.
he'll be my four walls, and i'll be sitting pretty on the inside.

i had to wake up at 9am, my dreams were being too honest with me, though i never wear black jeans because i don't own any, so you can't help me to find them.
i fell in love with a one eyed fluffy ginger cat that paid a visit to my house a couple of nights ago. i put food on the steps for him/her to eat. but i mightn't ever see him/her again and this breaks my heart like the fingers of the boy i once loved. creeping into my dreams with photo frames filled with the past and walls scattered with calendars marking its passing, insinuating that everything i ever believed was a lie, that whatever i've become is entirely fabricated, and all for nothing. informing me that the proof most certainly is not in the pudding.
i don't intend to dislike everything. just most often it seems all i'm capable of.
it merges n meshes impeccably, steadfast n stuck-fast; a fantastical facade. it sends me to sleep.